Lists

Lists

Lists

I’ve been making lists lately.

Every day, I pull out my newest little notebook, the size I like most for lists, and write out the things I’d like to accomplish before the day’s end. There’s a lot of laundry, dinner making, and dusting. Four days a week, the word “run” appears, sometimes followed by a question mark.

Logistical (take a kid somewhere at some time) and organizational (please put your laundry away, Jenna) things take up a lot of space on these little white pages, blue ink sometimes smeared by writing too quickly or the gloppy pen I love so much. These things, these do this and be there things, can easily be checked off, finished, categorized, happily quantified.

It pleases me to check them off.

But sometimes I put not-so-easily-quantifiable things on my lists.

You know. The things you can’t just easily check off.

Write. Write what? Write a post? This list? A letter to my daughter? A poem? A note to my husband? A song? Any part of that book still clamoring around inside my head? But instead, I just write the one word. Write. And I stare.

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Photo. Photo… graph? Photograph what? The kids? The dog? The chickens, for certain. My husband? Inanimate objects? Flowers? Sunsets, obviously. Chucks hanging off ledges of things? (Yes.) Emotions? Darkness? Light? Or am I to print new photos to hang in our space, to remind us of things and times already happened, already passed?

Be kind. It’s been my thing for quite some time, but it’s hard to check it off daily. Yes, I offered compassion and empathy to my kids when they did something they weren’t supposed to do, but then I lost my cool when they pestered me for the umpteenth time about something, about anything. I held a door and offered a good day to an elderly gentleman, but I glared impatiently and mouthed a few choice words to the old woman who cut me off. Do unkindnesses negate kindnesses? Do I need to uncheck the box once I’ve already checked it off for the day?

Breathe. I write this knowing that I will breathe as it is a vital bodily function. But that’s not what I mean, not the full extent of what the word means to me. I want to stay in this calmer place I’ve found myself in, but sometimes I get ten kinds of spazzy when something isn’t where it’s supposed to be or I make a mistake or the anxiety just builds up and up and up and up. It’s in those moments I want to take a step back, take a deep breath, and come at the situation in a calmer, more peaceful manner. But if I have two peaceful moments and ten spazzy moments, can I check this off my list.

I don’t know.

I know that I keep writing these things on my lists. I keep wanting to write, to photograph, to practice kindness, and to breathe. I keep wanting to come back to these things, these things which matter so much but don’t fit easily into boxes. I write them because I want to remember them, to practice them, to keep them close to my heart and mind.

At the end of the day, I just want to look at my list and think back over the things I’ve done and said… and I want to feel a peace with it all. Even the laundry left undone or the email left unreturned. I want to know I tried and maybe failed and that, really, it’s all okay.

 

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July Stitch Fix: Summery Tops Galore!

July Stitch Fix, Filbert Arrow Henley Print Blouse

For my July Stitch Fix, I asked for summery tops and, as always, a dress. I wanted some more casual options as I mentioned in a recent post. I got exactly what I wanted, and I’m so thrilled.

Here’s what came with my Fix.

Kahlo Embroidered Solid Tank

July Stitch Fix, Kahlo Embroidered Solid Tank
Kahlo Embroidered Solid Tank, Stitch Fix | Midi Skirt, Golden Tote | Gilded Reeds Aventurine Drop Earrings and Modern Deco Bracelet | Beige opened flats, Old Navy (Similar)

I showed you this top on Tuesday, and I’ve worn it again since. It’s flowy and everything summery. When I wore it again, I wore it with some aqua shorts and my new favorite color of Chucks.

July Stitch Fix, Kahlo Embroidered Solid Tank

* I did trade the skirt.

Sonoma Striped Sleeveless Top

July Stitch Fix, Sonoma Striped Sleeveless Shirt
Sonoma Striped Sleeveless Top, Stitch Fix | Navy Blue Shorts | La Lune Bangle Set

I’m not normally big on orange, but this shirt makes me love it so hard. It’s also incredibly light weight and features a high-low cut which remains my favorite trend in tops right now. I need some navy blue sandals.

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Filbert Arrow Print Henley Blouse

July Stitch Fix, Filbert Arrow Henley Print Blouse
Filbert Arrow Henley Print Blouse, Stitch Fix | Black Shorts, Similar | Pressed Paillette Toggle Bracelet| Heirloom Chain + Pave Convertible Necklace | Javi Rhinestone Sandal

This is my favorite style of blouse from Stitch Fix and my stylist knows. No matter what print she sends it in, I always buy it. It fits so nicely and the material is a dream. I paired it with black dress shorts, but will totally rock this shirt into winter and fall. And spring. And so on.

Julianna Back Cutout Top

July Stitch Fix, Julianna Back Cutout Top
Julianna Back Cutout Top, Stitch Fix | Khaki Shorts, Similar | Marquesas Long Pendant | Multi-Wrap Bead + Chain Bracelet, Similar | Best Green Chucks Ever

Oh dear. Green, high-low hem, fun back design? Yup! This felt very Jurassic Park as we had just watched the first movie with the boys. I paired it with khaki shorts this day, but wore it later with long, slim-fit bermuda shorts to dress it up a little bit. As a warning: If you stand in front of a fan, this shirt will blow up. Ahem.

Spencer Dress

July Stitch Fix, Spencer Dress
Spencer Dress, Stitch Fix | Black Wedge Heels, Similar | Pave Leaf Drop Earrings

This dress is black and very, very light mint green. The fabric stretches in all the right places, and it fits just perfectly. If you want to accentuate your waist, look for a dress that is cut in this manner with stripes placed in just this way. It’s a dream!

And so, I’m thrilled with my July Stitch Fix. Paige seems to get me quite well. You can check it out yourself with my referral code. I get a credit if you do, full disclosure.

Now off to enjoy summer in all my lovely new tops!